new outlook on life

Most of the days that have gone by have been like always.
But something just hit me.
God is good. He will always be. No dream is too big. Even though sometimes you may think your dream is small, it isn't. God opens doors where no human could even think possible.
Yeah, I may hate physics, but the more I say it, the more I hate it. It's time to be a change. To actually do something that's worth it and change someone life. Our generation is used to the superficial shell and not the raw inside that each of us have. Maybe I am not the best writer, and I am not the smartest, but there is something special in me, and that's the fact that the Almighty God is living inside of me, and I am proud to be part of his kingdom. No, I won't be afraid to share the gospel. Without God I wouldn't be anywhere I am today. He is the reason I live, the reason I breathe. Why be ashamed of your creator? It makes no sense.

I have known friends to tend to do both worldly things and still manage to do things in church. I don't understand how someone could be for God and against Him at the same time. Little do those people know that there is no middle ground. There is heaven of hell, and we are going to either of those. There is no middle ground.

Many times we lose friendships and hard times come and we ask, why does God do this to me? Most of the times we don't see it, but God may do that to challenge your faith to see how much you love Him. He knows time and it's in His hands. If you put all of your faith on the Almighty God, He will take care of you. He won't let you down. Even though I am a sinner and I am nowhere near perfect, He still loves me unconditionally. His love is everlasting. His mercy is never ending. He is the Alfa and Omega and He is always here to catch me when I fall.

Forever loving my eternal Father,
Jordanna

A little bit of everything.

SCHOOL: Not so bad. I am starting to like Ap Lang more and more as the days go by. The class is a lot of work, but my teacher is the sweetest!! She has a cinnammony scent in her room that is so yummy:) ahh. Well on the other hand, I am learning to hate my physics class as the days go by. It is the last class of the day and I completely zone out. Not to mention that the class talks so much that I can barely hear the teacher teach. It's horrible. We have a test EVERY week :/ yuckk.

CHURCH: Church is okay. The pedal to the piano got taken and now I have to play without a pedal.. Which SUCKS! but other than that it's okay. We are going to have a teen thing like three days of the weekend and we are going to do a play that is REALLY awesome. I am in love with it!

BOYS: No boys in my life. None that I have anything for that is. I wish I could meet one and just like him. But I like being single at the moment :] It's brought my old self back :]

FRIENDS: I am making more of them :] Bringing my old self back has helped me build more friendships. And let's not forget my bff Karita :] I love that girl :] but on the other hand.. Some friendship that were really close, aren't as close anymore :/

But God is good :]

-love, Jay.

school !!! Yuck.

School has been a hassle!!
I have been in it for two weeks now and it's already getting tiring!! I had the bright idea to change from Honors American lit to AP lang! I mean don't get me wrong, AP lang is a really fun class and all, but it has tons of work! Since I already have 3 other academic classes, it makes the work load a bit heavy on my shoulders!!

On the brighter note, I got a 96 on my math quiz today :] technically, it was supposed to be a 95, but then when I rechecked my work, I realized that the teacher had made a mistake so she gave me another point :] I was really happy! It was also hilarious how I rubbed it in my friends face haha !!

In physics, which is another class I have with him, he got a 90 on the test, and I don't know what I got yet.. Although I know I did pretty badly because I guessed on some! haha! And it was out of 20 :/ but anywho, I am getting really tired of school.

The sad part is that I couldn't sleep last night. I was rolling in bed till 4:30 and couldn't fall asleep, so when I woke up late this morning, I was deadd!!! I have to read and analyze about 30 pages in a book we started reading today in AP lang. It's not really that bad, but I'm really tired. I don't want to go to sleep because if I do then I will sleep late tonight and I don't wanna do that..

I wish it were summer forever!! But in 2 years i'll graduate. haha!! I wish I could fast foward time.

Past 2 days,

So these past two days have been miserable. It's been so miserable that I'm crying at the moment. One of the most meaningful people in my life gave up on me today. He doesn't want to talk to me anymore and I totally understand why. The sad part is that I really need him in my life because he was the reason why I smiled on my sad days, the reason why my tears went away. He knew me more than I knew myself, and i've known him for 6 years.

I am in tears because I led him on when I shouldn't have, and because of that, he is hurt and so am I. Because of me, our friendship is ruined, now, I don't know what to do because he is really important to me and I need him in my life. He says he thinks that he means nothing to me, but he doesn't see it. He doesn't see that as much as I didn't sometimes appreciate the fact that he was next to me but he doesn't see that because of him, I went back to my regular self. I went back to being me. I had lost myself and he found me again. Why you ask? Because he can see the real me.


Today at church, he didn't even look at my face, and my heart hurt so much when we walked right next to each other like we were complete strangers. I knew many people would leave my life, but he was the last person in my mind that would leave me or give up on me. But I guess I was wrong.. All I know is that I make mistakes that sometimes I make unintentionally or intentionally and it ends up hurting the people around me. Especially the ones that I needed the most. I guess we'll see how these months play out when the last person that wouldn't make me cry, did.

Cheerios:)

Okay, so my mom bought some whole wheat Cheerios. Let me tell you, those are the best things invented in this whole entire world :) well, that's a little side note. Let me tell you how my day went :)

I woke up at like 3ish, and i felt really dizzy and tired, but then again I think that happens when you get too much sleep haha!! And then after that, I put some Cheerios in a bag and my sister, her friend, and I all went to the pool. The really sad part was that I don't know where my tanning oil is so I couldn't tan today, so that made me a bit upset :/ well anyways, my friend Mattie was there and him and I had a kinda deep conversation. It was actually really good. I told him stuff, and he told me stuff, it was a fun time:)

Then, at the pool, there was this girl, and she is Matt's friend, and Matt told me that she goes to a school for bad people because she likes to fight. Now get this, the girl is only 12!! I was like oh my gosh. So I talked to her and she told me that she wants to be a lawyer.. I kinda gave her a speech haha. I told her that she shouldn't mind what people say about her because wherever she goes, she is always gonna have a hater and stuff. I have a feeling that what I was saying wasn't really getting into her head, but I hope that someday she remembers today and she will realize that acting hard all the time and wanting to fight wasn't always the solution.. And she agreed with me. Which is good..

Well anyway, I got home and my mom ordered pizza and tuscani pasta, which was amazing because I was soo hungry. Then, my dad told me that Portugal won 5-0 today. I was really shocked, because then that means that the game between Brazil and Portugal is gonna be really good, because they played North Korea today and won 5-0 and we played them and we won 2-1. But then again I understand because it was our first game and stuff, but still, this game is gonna be GOOD!:))

Another thing, Brunno told me that there was an update for the Iphone :)So my phone is updating now. Im kinda excited to see the changes:))
well that's it for now!

xoxo.

P.S, the reason why I woke up once to watch a 10 'o clock game of Portugal.

:))

So this week has been kind of a drag.. I didn't really do anything this entire week. Well except yesterday. We, me, Brunno and the youth group leader of my church and his wife all went to Taco Mac. It was actually really fun. The food there is really good and the surrounding is really nice. There is like a little mall there and there is a woman singing live. It was pretty cool.

Then last night, I spent the night at a friends. I slept late because I wasn't tired and me and her brother stayed up just watching tv.. He is kind of a weirdo because he likes watching terror movies and one of them had a family and they ate humans.. I was FREAKED OUT!!! Because I watched that movie, I barely slept...:/

But today we went to the pool, twice. But on the first time we went, Brunno wasn't there because he was working.. But on the second time we went, he was there. There were these little girls and they were asking me questions like if I liked Brunno or something haha and I lied to them and told them that him and I were going out. It was the most hilarious thing. I couldn't stop myself from laughing! But now I am still at my friends house and my dad has to pick me up in a little bit because I have to baby sit today :/ It kinda sucks because I don't really wanna do that.. But her dad is gonna ask my dad if I can spend the night again because tomorrow is the Brazil game..I hope they winnnn :)

Well that's it for now, I have to take a shower!!
xoxo! :)



AHH <33

a little bit of this, a little bit of that.

So a lot has happened since I last posted. Friday and Saturday, I went to church. It went well, except for the fact that like nobody of the youth from my church went and we couldn't sing. Thankfully, I wasn't wearing the flag shirt! Well anyways, after church on Saturday, Brunno, Nathielly, Kevin, Igor, Gus, and Juninho all went to Gus's house. It was fun, but no surprise, I got home late. It made me miss old times. Well anyway, we all watched Valentine's Day, and let me tell you, I LOVED that movie. Not just because the stories were interesting, but because the guys in the movie were SOOO hot. I mean come on, Ashton Kutcher, Taylor Lautner, Bradley Cooper,Eric Dane,Patrick Dempsey, Carter Jenkins and Jamie Foxx all in one movie? I mean come on! How much better can that get?

Well to change the topic, I went to the post office today with my mom to give a box Turns out that the box was really heavy and she had to pay a lot.. But anyways, when we were on the way home, I called my dad and asked if I could get my second hole piercing in my ear and he said no because it was out of the normality of this world and blah blah blah, and I just like okay. We get home, and my dad starts freaking out because I asked that question and he starts yelling at my mom like wtf? I just wanted to punch him in the face. Well, anyway, I cooked tonight :) It was actually fantastic:) My mom is still pissed that my dad yelled at her so she doesn't say much.

I'm really excited because Brunno is coming to my house tomorrow along with one of our family friends to watch Brazil vs. North Korea. It shall be a fun time :) I'm actually quite excited. We are gonna have a little BBQ and maybe we might go to the pool after, well anyway, before I go, let me introduce you to my two husbands :)


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God made some men so beautiful :)haha!

xoxo.

Lakehouse,

So today was different. Not really in the fact that I still woke up at 2, but in the fact that I didn't stay home alone not doing anything. My mom called me and told me that she was going to clean this woman's house that had a lakehouse and she wanted me and my sister to come..So I was like cool! So we got ready and surprisingly, my sister made me and her an omelet. Like what a miracle right?

But when we got there, the place was beautiful! The lake was soo gorgeous!


What a beautiful sight huh?


Well anyway, it took a lot for my sister and I to get in the water. First of all, we were really scared of fish, and then we were really scared of rocks, but in the end, I'm the one that ended up going in first. We didn't stay in the water for a long time because I'm not gonna lie, I was a bit scared of the fishies! But my sister and I got to take a lot of pictures so it went really well!



My hair was a complete mess, but the water felt fantastic!

But anyway, we all got home in a hurry and went to church. Church went great!!
Today has made me realize how great God is. He made things so beautiful. The way He works is miraculous. He is worthy of all of my praise. And one thing that i've realized is, His love will endure forever.



Thank you Jesus for everything.

xoxo.

Movies,

So I just got back from Yogli Mogli and the movies with my family. It went well.To start off, Yogli Mogli is probably the best invention ever made. It is sooo good! Well after that, we went to the movies. We watched the Prince of Persia. That movie was fantastic!

For starters, the main actor is sooo hot! Like every scene he was in, I was basically drooling! haha! I'm just kidding, but really, he was hot! Anyways, the movie was very actiony and I really like that. The only part that abhorred was the part where there was a snake. There was a scene in the movie where there were like a thousand snakes and I almost puked. I cannot stand snakes. They scare me and I can't look at it on the screen. So I just wrapped myself in a little ball and screamed quietly! But in the end, the movie ended well. I really liked the ending actually.

My mom thought the guy was really hot, and my dad thought the girl was really hot! How ironic is that. And the funny part is that my mom thought the girl was ugly and my dad thought the guy was ugly! haha! But I got to admit, both of the actors were really nice looking, but the guy wins!! Well anyways, that's all I wanted to say.

Now, it's devotional time. My sister also wants me to do her nails.. So I guess that's it for now :)



What a stud huh?

Take me here.

So no surprise, I woke up today at 2 again. I had asked Brunno to wake me up at 11 and he did. But of course as I thought, I didn't wake up and slept until 2 again. I really don't wanna trade night for day in the summer. I always have a goal that I am not gonna let that happen every summer and that's what ends up happening. I just don't see how people can sleep so early. I honestly can't just close my eyes and fall asleep. I toss and turn until the sleep comes to me. That's the sad part.

Well anyways, I woke up and felt horrible. I was tired and so dizzy. I guess that's what happens when you get more that 8 hours of sleep!!Well, I woke up and went to read my book that came in the mail. It's called In Cold Blood, and the begginning was not as bad as I thought it was. I mean don't get me wrong, it's still a bit boring, but not as boring as last year's book. I mean that book was a COMPLETE DRAG!
But I managed to read a chapter today, including little side notes that I wrote in the book and a chapter note! I'm so surprised!

Well, i repainted my nails because they were chipping, but i accidently messed like 4fingers up so I have to do them again. Kinda sucks because they looked really good! But my friend called me up today and invited me to the movies. It was kinda random cause I didn't think she would do that because me and her aren't as close as we were. But either way, I really want to go to the movies with her, so she is gonna check with her mom, but I honestly don't know how it is gonna be..

Right now, at this moment, I wish I were in an island. Just me. By myself. And i was tanning and enjoying the view. And just breathing and thinking about life. I want a change. Something new to happen in my life. Not the same things everyday. But oh well, that's life..
xoxo.



take me here?

Learning to value others.

I went to rehearsal and it went really well. We finished in record time. After, we just started talking about something that happened in church and that made us go on for an hour. There was a point where I was trying to say my opinion and be completely honest, but they didn't understand. That's okay though. In the end, God is all that matters.


Well anyways, I got home and then I ate beef. It was the best. And raspberry lemonade. Talk about perfection! I then watched a bit of Degrassi. Not gonna lie, there are times when I like that show and when I don't. Today it wasn't that bad because there wasn't that much drama, but when it comes to the whole gay thing I'm like out. I then watched that 70's show. That show is hiiilarious! haha.

Oh and before I got home, I got the mail and one of my books came in!! The bad thing is that it looks really boring! It's about murder and I honestly don't like the whole mystery scary type of books.

I just finished reading my devotional and it talked about honoring and valuing others. It actually came right on time. It was something that I really needed to read. It did great for me. God is good. All the time! There is no one else I go to in my time of need.

Anyways, I'm about to get on the phone with bruuu:)
goodnight;

xoxo.

The whole entire day.

Today was useless. Not a surprise because besides the days that I'm sleeping over Karita's or going out with my friends, my days at home are useless. As always, I woke up like 4 hours later that I wanted to. I even took out the dark curtains on my window with the hopes of being awaken by sunlight, but that plan was a failure. I stayed on facebook for about a good 6 hours doing nothing at all. I would just refresh the newsfeed and that's it. What a boring day! The only time I actually got out of the sofa was to put some alfredo to bake and to put a movie in the DVD player.

I would have gone to the pool or something, but my sister loves to stay in. She will stay in if her life depends on it. She doesn't like to go to the pool because she is self conscious about her body and so that means I can only go to the pool when someone is over, because no one likes to go to the pool alone. Oh, and the books for summer reading that I ordered like 5 days ago, haven't come in the mail yet.

In a little I have to go to rehearsal. I totally forgot that it was Tuesday until my mom got out of the house and told me she was gonna pick me up in an hour when she came back from what she was gonna do. I guess that's not a good thing right? Oh well, but hopefully something exciting happens soon, because doing nothing almost EVERYDAY of the summer, kinda sucks.



I wish I were here.

Weird dream? Or the beginning of a nightmare?

I woke up around 2 pm today but it was because i had a really weird dream. There was a retreat with all of the youth at my church and we were supposed to go to a cabin, but we ended up being in this gigantic mansion. It was huuuuge. And it had everything inside. You could tell that the house had been abandoned for a long time because there was dust everywhere and it smelled like it wasn't cared for in a while. So supposedly I was dating this guy from church? I don't know, it was weird. But the thing that was really cool about the house was that there was a zoo in the back! With a giraffe.

And hippos and monkeys and all of these cool birds! It was amazing but they looked like they weren't cared for. And right when it was about to get really intense, because some people went missing, I woke up.

I don't know why I had this dream, but it would be really cool when we actually went to the cabin this year, there would be a zoo in the back!!:)

xoxo<3

Phil Wickham

So it is kind of late at night, and I was listening to Phil Wickham, and I got goosebumps and started to cry. God's love is so merciful to us, and we don't deserve it. The song is called Messiah, and in the chorus it says, Messiah, please save us. It is so true. We need God each and everyday. Praise God.