new outlook on life

Most of the days that have gone by have been like always.
But something just hit me.
God is good. He will always be. No dream is too big. Even though sometimes you may think your dream is small, it isn't. God opens doors where no human could even think possible.
Yeah, I may hate physics, but the more I say it, the more I hate it. It's time to be a change. To actually do something that's worth it and change someone life. Our generation is used to the superficial shell and not the raw inside that each of us have. Maybe I am not the best writer, and I am not the smartest, but there is something special in me, and that's the fact that the Almighty God is living inside of me, and I am proud to be part of his kingdom. No, I won't be afraid to share the gospel. Without God I wouldn't be anywhere I am today. He is the reason I live, the reason I breathe. Why be ashamed of your creator? It makes no sense.

I have known friends to tend to do both worldly things and still manage to do things in church. I don't understand how someone could be for God and against Him at the same time. Little do those people know that there is no middle ground. There is heaven of hell, and we are going to either of those. There is no middle ground.

Many times we lose friendships and hard times come and we ask, why does God do this to me? Most of the times we don't see it, but God may do that to challenge your faith to see how much you love Him. He knows time and it's in His hands. If you put all of your faith on the Almighty God, He will take care of you. He won't let you down. Even though I am a sinner and I am nowhere near perfect, He still loves me unconditionally. His love is everlasting. His mercy is never ending. He is the Alfa and Omega and He is always here to catch me when I fall.

Forever loving my eternal Father,
Jordanna

A little bit of everything.

SCHOOL: Not so bad. I am starting to like Ap Lang more and more as the days go by. The class is a lot of work, but my teacher is the sweetest!! She has a cinnammony scent in her room that is so yummy:) ahh. Well on the other hand, I am learning to hate my physics class as the days go by. It is the last class of the day and I completely zone out. Not to mention that the class talks so much that I can barely hear the teacher teach. It's horrible. We have a test EVERY week :/ yuckk.

CHURCH: Church is okay. The pedal to the piano got taken and now I have to play without a pedal.. Which SUCKS! but other than that it's okay. We are going to have a teen thing like three days of the weekend and we are going to do a play that is REALLY awesome. I am in love with it!

BOYS: No boys in my life. None that I have anything for that is. I wish I could meet one and just like him. But I like being single at the moment :] It's brought my old self back :]

FRIENDS: I am making more of them :] Bringing my old self back has helped me build more friendships. And let's not forget my bff Karita :] I love that girl :] but on the other hand.. Some friendship that were really close, aren't as close anymore :/

But God is good :]

-love, Jay.

school !!! Yuck.

School has been a hassle!!
I have been in it for two weeks now and it's already getting tiring!! I had the bright idea to change from Honors American lit to AP lang! I mean don't get me wrong, AP lang is a really fun class and all, but it has tons of work! Since I already have 3 other academic classes, it makes the work load a bit heavy on my shoulders!!

On the brighter note, I got a 96 on my math quiz today :] technically, it was supposed to be a 95, but then when I rechecked my work, I realized that the teacher had made a mistake so she gave me another point :] I was really happy! It was also hilarious how I rubbed it in my friends face haha !!

In physics, which is another class I have with him, he got a 90 on the test, and I don't know what I got yet.. Although I know I did pretty badly because I guessed on some! haha! And it was out of 20 :/ but anywho, I am getting really tired of school.

The sad part is that I couldn't sleep last night. I was rolling in bed till 4:30 and couldn't fall asleep, so when I woke up late this morning, I was deadd!!! I have to read and analyze about 30 pages in a book we started reading today in AP lang. It's not really that bad, but I'm really tired. I don't want to go to sleep because if I do then I will sleep late tonight and I don't wanna do that..

I wish it were summer forever!! But in 2 years i'll graduate. haha!! I wish I could fast foward time.

Past 2 days,

So these past two days have been miserable. It's been so miserable that I'm crying at the moment. One of the most meaningful people in my life gave up on me today. He doesn't want to talk to me anymore and I totally understand why. The sad part is that I really need him in my life because he was the reason why I smiled on my sad days, the reason why my tears went away. He knew me more than I knew myself, and i've known him for 6 years.

I am in tears because I led him on when I shouldn't have, and because of that, he is hurt and so am I. Because of me, our friendship is ruined, now, I don't know what to do because he is really important to me and I need him in my life. He says he thinks that he means nothing to me, but he doesn't see it. He doesn't see that as much as I didn't sometimes appreciate the fact that he was next to me but he doesn't see that because of him, I went back to my regular self. I went back to being me. I had lost myself and he found me again. Why you ask? Because he can see the real me.


Today at church, he didn't even look at my face, and my heart hurt so much when we walked right next to each other like we were complete strangers. I knew many people would leave my life, but he was the last person in my mind that would leave me or give up on me. But I guess I was wrong.. All I know is that I make mistakes that sometimes I make unintentionally or intentionally and it ends up hurting the people around me. Especially the ones that I needed the most. I guess we'll see how these months play out when the last person that wouldn't make me cry, did.

Cheerios:)

Okay, so my mom bought some whole wheat Cheerios. Let me tell you, those are the best things invented in this whole entire world :) well, that's a little side note. Let me tell you how my day went :)

I woke up at like 3ish, and i felt really dizzy and tired, but then again I think that happens when you get too much sleep haha!! And then after that, I put some Cheerios in a bag and my sister, her friend, and I all went to the pool. The really sad part was that I don't know where my tanning oil is so I couldn't tan today, so that made me a bit upset :/ well anyways, my friend Mattie was there and him and I had a kinda deep conversation. It was actually really good. I told him stuff, and he told me stuff, it was a fun time:)

Then, at the pool, there was this girl, and she is Matt's friend, and Matt told me that she goes to a school for bad people because she likes to fight. Now get this, the girl is only 12!! I was like oh my gosh. So I talked to her and she told me that she wants to be a lawyer.. I kinda gave her a speech haha. I told her that she shouldn't mind what people say about her because wherever she goes, she is always gonna have a hater and stuff. I have a feeling that what I was saying wasn't really getting into her head, but I hope that someday she remembers today and she will realize that acting hard all the time and wanting to fight wasn't always the solution.. And she agreed with me. Which is good..

Well anyway, I got home and my mom ordered pizza and tuscani pasta, which was amazing because I was soo hungry. Then, my dad told me that Portugal won 5-0 today. I was really shocked, because then that means that the game between Brazil and Portugal is gonna be really good, because they played North Korea today and won 5-0 and we played them and we won 2-1. But then again I understand because it was our first game and stuff, but still, this game is gonna be GOOD!:))

Another thing, Brunno told me that there was an update for the Iphone :)So my phone is updating now. Im kinda excited to see the changes:))
well that's it for now!

xoxo.

P.S, the reason why I woke up once to watch a 10 'o clock game of Portugal.

:))

So this week has been kind of a drag.. I didn't really do anything this entire week. Well except yesterday. We, me, Brunno and the youth group leader of my church and his wife all went to Taco Mac. It was actually really fun. The food there is really good and the surrounding is really nice. There is like a little mall there and there is a woman singing live. It was pretty cool.

Then last night, I spent the night at a friends. I slept late because I wasn't tired and me and her brother stayed up just watching tv.. He is kind of a weirdo because he likes watching terror movies and one of them had a family and they ate humans.. I was FREAKED OUT!!! Because I watched that movie, I barely slept...:/

But today we went to the pool, twice. But on the first time we went, Brunno wasn't there because he was working.. But on the second time we went, he was there. There were these little girls and they were asking me questions like if I liked Brunno or something haha and I lied to them and told them that him and I were going out. It was the most hilarious thing. I couldn't stop myself from laughing! But now I am still at my friends house and my dad has to pick me up in a little bit because I have to baby sit today :/ It kinda sucks because I don't really wanna do that.. But her dad is gonna ask my dad if I can spend the night again because tomorrow is the Brazil game..I hope they winnnn :)

Well that's it for now, I have to take a shower!!
xoxo! :)



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a little bit of this, a little bit of that.

So a lot has happened since I last posted. Friday and Saturday, I went to church. It went well, except for the fact that like nobody of the youth from my church went and we couldn't sing. Thankfully, I wasn't wearing the flag shirt! Well anyways, after church on Saturday, Brunno, Nathielly, Kevin, Igor, Gus, and Juninho all went to Gus's house. It was fun, but no surprise, I got home late. It made me miss old times. Well anyway, we all watched Valentine's Day, and let me tell you, I LOVED that movie. Not just because the stories were interesting, but because the guys in the movie were SOOO hot. I mean come on, Ashton Kutcher, Taylor Lautner, Bradley Cooper,Eric Dane,Patrick Dempsey, Carter Jenkins and Jamie Foxx all in one movie? I mean come on! How much better can that get?

Well to change the topic, I went to the post office today with my mom to give a box Turns out that the box was really heavy and she had to pay a lot.. But anyways, when we were on the way home, I called my dad and asked if I could get my second hole piercing in my ear and he said no because it was out of the normality of this world and blah blah blah, and I just like okay. We get home, and my dad starts freaking out because I asked that question and he starts yelling at my mom like wtf? I just wanted to punch him in the face. Well, anyway, I cooked tonight :) It was actually fantastic:) My mom is still pissed that my dad yelled at her so she doesn't say much.

I'm really excited because Brunno is coming to my house tomorrow along with one of our family friends to watch Brazil vs. North Korea. It shall be a fun time :) I'm actually quite excited. We are gonna have a little BBQ and maybe we might go to the pool after, well anyway, before I go, let me introduce you to my two husbands :)


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God made some men so beautiful :)haha!

xoxo.